Baby P.

I have been browsing through the comments that my post about baby P had received.

Such emotion !

Scary to think that so many people still believe in our legal system.

More scary is the knowledge that these sadists have family.
Where were they when their daughter, son, nephew, brother or sister were torturing baby P?

What about the neighbours ?
No challenge from them ?

This tragedy only occurred because family, friends and neighbours said and did NOTHING.

Just like the last time AND the next time.

Why Did My Heart Attack Me ?

Oh, all this heart stuff is doing my head in.

I have stopped smoking.
I have changed my diet and other patterns of behaviour.

Yet, still panic when I have a 'sensation' in my chest.
Freak when I become breathless after exertion.

The fear that this has brought up for me is possibly worse than the heart attack(s).

Named And Shamed. The Killers Of Baby P.

The Mother(!) of Baby P is one Tracey Connolly, of Penhurst Road, Tottenham.

Steven Barker is the boyfriend that loved baby P to death.

Jason Owen, the warped and twisted lodger.

May God grant them ALL they deserve.

St Peter's Hospital In Surrey.

After 48 years of burning candles, chain smoking and no thought for tomorrow, I fell down with a heart attack.
Tut.

My Thanks to ALL staff at St Peter's Hospital in Surrey.
From the A+E department through to Coronary Care - you are Angels.

Theft Of A Nation.

We have all been hearing about the crisis in our financial industries.
But do any of us know the real facts about our money supply ?

We work hard for money.
When we have it we store it.
We hoard it and we dream of more.

Some people lie and steal for it.
Some people even kill for it.

It is paper !

On the paper read the words 'I promise to pay the bearer on demand the sum of 5, 10, 20, 50 pounds.'
It is an IOU for the amount in the GOLD reserves of the nation.

Or it USED to be.

Governments have always had to regulate their Banking system, for obvious reasons.
History has shown us there are no 'good, honest banking practices.'
Only corrupt, greedy people.

Margaret Thatcher 'deregulated' the UK banks in the early 80's.
(Multi-millionaire husband, Dennis - a Banker - was much pleased. As were the many Tory Ministers who moonlighted on the Boards of the major clearing houses.)
For deregulation read let off the leash.

Banks could now print money that was not related to the country's gold supply.
Instead, they used OUR debt to them (ie bank loans, mortgages, etc) as THEIR pot of gold.
They printed money on OUR promise to pay them back in the future !!

An IOU for an IOU !?

And it worked.

First, the Yuppie revolution.
Gambling, cough, through the shares markets.
Then the Housing bubble.
The DotCom bubble.
The War machine bubble.

First, Millions then Billions, now Trillions.

This crazy, mad system is now grinding to an end.

Thank God for that.

Google Earth - Wow

Embedded Video

Double wow

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Dad Smothers Children.

I shed a few tears when reading about the dad who killed his kids in Southampton at the weekend.

As a father of two girls, one I am not allowed access to, I can sympathise with the mans actions.
I am not saying I would kill my children, but I HAVE wanted to kill my ex and her family.

Fighting the Legal system and bilious family members once brought me to my wits end.
Without the support of my friends, I know I would be either in prison or dead.

Losing contact with your own children hurts so much and ultimately twists your mind.
Combine that with the pressures and stress of Court action, the lies and gossip when other family members get involved, is it any wonder that tragedy is the result.

When couples separate, the only thing in the parents and the Courts minds should be the welfare of the children.
Unfortunately, the children are used as weapons.

This type of incident WILL happen again.
And it wont be the fault of the lone parent.

Both parents, the families and our Legal system IS to blame.

Support not blame.
For the sake of the children.

Anchor Care(?) Homes.

Taken from last weeks Daily Mail.

A public sector housing boss has secured an earnings package worth almost £1,000 a day.

John Belcher, whose organisation runs subsidised homes for the elderly, received taxpayer-funded salary and perks worth more than £360,000 last year.

Dr Belcher, 61, chief executive of the Anchor Trust, has more than doubled the value of his pay package over seven years.

Canadian-born Dr Belcher also serves on the Audit Commission, the public spending watchdog.

Last year he earned £327,000, including a £72,000 bonus and a car allowance of £15,000. He also received £1,000 in medical insurance and £32,880 in pension contributions, bringing the total to £360,880.

The TaxPayers' Alliance said it was 'outrageous', while the Housing Corporation, which regulates housing associations, warned that 'salary increases should be proportionate'.

The pay of housing association chiefs shot up after the organisations expanded when councils hived off their housing estates to independent associations, which are often run by former town hall officials.

They are due for a further boost of £400million over the next few months under Gordon Brown's plans to build more social housing to ease the impact of the credit crunch.

Anchor Trust, provides housing for 50,000 elderly people. It runs care homes and sells sheltered housing but its biggest operation is as a landlord of subsidised housing.
John Belcher earns nearly twice the £189,994 earned by Prime Minister Gordon Brown

It receives £600million in housing grants from the Treasury.

Dianne Jeffrey, its outgoing chairman, said it was 'more complex' than a traditional association and was competing with the private sector.

She added: 'We demand a high level of leadership, professionalism and commitment of our chief executive. The salary and bonus reflect that.

The panel that decided Dr Belcher's pay was headed by Mrs Jeffrey, her successor Aman Dalvi, who is a housing association chief, another housing association boss and a construction industry representative.

She said they had 'an appropriate mix of skills and experience'.

But Matthew Sinclair, of the Tax-Payers' Alliance, said: 'When taxpayers who foot the bill are facing hard times, it is outrageous that an official at a housing association has obtained such an extravagant salary.


The news of Dr Belcher's pay comes amid growing concern about the salaries of council chiefs.

Eight town hall bosses are paid more than £200,000. Andrea Hill, chief executive of Suffolk County Council, says she deserves £220,000 a year because her job is 'high risk'.

What Next For The Economy ?

Nothing.

A few City boys and girls will move offices is all.

Some may turn from the greed driven trade and do charity work.
But most will return and in a year, maybe two, all will be as it was.

Or will it ?

America's Banking System has all but collapsed.
The UK and European Banks are teetering on the edge.
Governments having to step in and buy out the major Finance Institutions, just to try and stop the rot.
Its not looking good.

Worse, the Governments have borrowed the money from same Financial Institutions and been charged interest on the loans.
Higher taxes for us.
More profit for them.

The last time major finance institutions went bust was the Great Depression, in the 20's.
That led to the rise of Fascism.
That led to a World War.

3 Mobile Scam.

Still waiting for my 150 pound refund from 3 Mobile.

Seven calls I have made to them now.
Seven times I have been told I WILL be getting it.
Seven times nothing.

Just tell me you are going to rob me.

Strangely, I prefer thieves to liars.

3
3
3 - you suck.

Its A land Grab.

Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac taken over by the US Government.

The two companies combined accounts total more than $4 trillion.
They hold the mortgages of HALF the homes in the USA.

And they collapsed.

No damaging boardroom battles here, though.
Nationalisation, and by a right wing American Government at that.

The US Treasury said, "Fannie Mae and Freddie Mac are so large and interwoven in our financial system that a failure of either of them would cause turmoil in financial markets, here and around the globe."

Halifax, the Uk's largest mortgage lender, has major financial dealings with both companies.

Both the US and UK economies are teetering on the brink.
Credit crunch.
Recession.
Downturn in the economy.
BLAH BLAH.

The rich get richer !

The US Government ARE the rich.
Governing FOR the rich.
They own the commanding heights of the economy
and now 50% of American homes.

We Sometimes Never Ask...

The most important questions.

How can we then know truth ?

Terrorism Or False Flag ?

Looking back over the last four years has been confusing.

For the first week after the bombings, the media repeated similar soundbites we had heard after 9 11.

'Muslim Terrorists' was the phrase I heard and saw used in the media, like a mantra.

Then, the Government stated their intention to increase the UK's Military presence in Iraq.
I feared for London, where I lived and worked.
Surely, this would lead to increased and more severe attacks ?

7 7 and 9 11 especially, seemed highly professional, ruthless and clinical.
Brilliant in simplicity and audacity.

How could just a handful of men/women inflict such a deadly toll in the capital Cities of the USA and UK ?

A willingness to sacrifice themselves for the positive outcome of their mission.
No thought of failure, no risk of capture.
Just bloody mayhem.

Coalition Forces struck back hard.
We fired more Missiles.
We killed even greater numbers of Taliban and Iraqi insurgents.
We had so much success President Bush declared an end of the war.

The Worlds Media followed and we were shown the destroyed Hospitals, Schools and Temples.
Ordinary people, no weapons nor desire to kill, homeless because of an off target missile.
Their villages razed to the ground because of the (mis)information about WMD.

The Governments of the West expected more attacks in revenge - and they came.

Several car bombs in London failed to go off.
Two bombs planted in Central London that were within seconds of detonation, but defused by Police arriving with only seconds to spare.
The devices were crude, cheap.
Then there was the attack on the Airport.
A 4X4 rammed the entrance and the driver comically set fire to himself.
There have been similar incidents in the USA.

7 7 was used by Blair to validate Bush's continuing occupation of Iraq and commit more of our troops in a War that, even he, believed wrong from the start.
Blair had supported action against those responsible for 9 11.
But balked when he realised that Bush and the Neo Cons were going into Iraq.

Was 7 7 a 'false flag' incident that pulled British citizens, by the nose, into an Illegal War ?

There are so many details that dont make sense.
The "Security Exercise" taking place at the same time, organised by VISOR CONSULTANTS, involving Bombs in the EXACT locations, at the EXACT time.

For an event to be used in the political way that 7 7 has. (An Illegal Invasion Of Another Country)
There should be no doubt !

Release ALL the evidence.

Terry Fields. A Working Class Hero.

Terry Fields died at the weekend, aged 71.

I met Terry when he was a Labour MP for Liverpool back in the 80's.

A committed Socialist and Trade Unionist, Terry was also a supporter of the Militant Tendency.

He stood on a platform for radical change that included Nationalising the Banks, a 35 hour week and a minimum wage.

When Terry won the Liverpool vote he gave money to the Labour and Trade Union movement, urging worker's MPs on worker's wages.

Realising that Leadership can get isolated and comforted against the burdens of ordinary people, he advocated ALL Labour MPs should do the same.

Only Tony Mulhearn, another Liverpool MP supported Terry back then.

Fly High, Terry.

20, Lancaster Place, Twickenham.

On my way back from spending the weekend at my friends, I popped round to my ex mother-in-law's house.

I visit the area to remind me of happier times.
Not to visit her.
My disappointment with Marion Wills is too deep for that.

Lancaster Place will always be an area where I spent happy times with my daughter, Grace.

I am grateful that I will always have those memories.

When Marion sees or hears my motorcycle, the only memories that she and the rest of the family has is of THEIR lies and deceit.

Police Dress As Monks.

Just received this photo of Chinese Police preparing to dress as Monks and join a Free Tibet demonstration.

Free Tibet.

Boycott the Olympic Games.

Our Care Field ?

Yet again, a Nurse is threatened with discipline after highlighting bad practices in our Health and Caring system.

She wore a secret camera and filmed incidents that included force feeding a patient and poor hygiene in Ealing Hospital, West london.

Instead of praising the whistleblowing Care Assistant and taking action against the Nurses and Management, the Health Authority reported her to the Nursing and Midwifery Council (NMC).

Nomaizwe Ndebelel, is charged with having failed to protect the interests and dignity of her patients.

Two of the Nurses exposed by Channel Four's Dispatches were also investigated by the NMC but no action was taken.

Abuse, poor hygiene and a lack of care is rife in our Hospitals and Care(!) Homes across the country.
When Nurses and Care Assistants report incidents, Management either silence or sack them.

NOTHING ever changes.

Why do we accept this ?
Why dont we change things ?

Because the system does not work.

Lets change the system.

Grace

Today has been hard for me.

Spending the weekend isolated has exhausted me.
Though, better than exhausting others, I guess.

Saturday was spent weeping.
Sunday I seethed.
Today at work I remained mostly dazed and unconcious.

Excitement and expectation has been replaced by disappointment.

I know how poisonous Adam Fairclough and Alison Gelfand can be.
But, I expected Grace to want to know the whole story.

Grace, I am worried for you.
Your mother's love for you calmed me.
Two families later, in a Boarding School half the world away, I feel fear.

Talk to me.
You have all the power.
You can lose nothing by contacting me.
Maybe a parent to gain ?

Love and Light be with you, always x

Nursing Spectrum and NurseWeek

(Shame you are not as good at Life )

South nassau rn latest news
Alison Gelfand, South Nassau RN and Recruiter, Nominated for Spectrum and NurseWeek 2008 Nurse of Excellence

Each year Nursing Spectrum looks for nurses who make us all proud to be their colleagues and who inspire us by their dedication, perseverance, and drive. They look for nurses who push the boundaries and move our horizons to places previously unknown.

This year Nursing Spectrum and NurseWeek will sponsor Nursing Excellence Awards in regions across the U.S. Every region will have winners in each of six categories. The regional winners will then be eligible as finalists for national awards. In November after all the regional events are completed a national Nurse of the Year in each of the six categories will be named.

Our very own Alison Gelfand, RN & Recruiter, has been nominated for 2008 Nurse of Excellence (Spectrum)-Category "Mentorship". We are so proud!

Many, many nominations are submitted each year from all over the greater New York area, including the five boroughs, Long Island, and Westchester, Putnam, Dutchess, Orange and Rockland counties, and the northern half of New Jersey. This year Spectrum received more nominations than ever before and Alison's nomination was an oustanding one amongst many. In addition Alison was among the first, if not the first ever recruitment professional to become a Finalist.

She is now one of 30 NY/NJ Finalists, and one of just five in the MENTORING category, and in that capacity she is eligible to become a NY/NJ Regional Winner in her category.

Six Regional Winners out of our 30 Finalists, one in each category, will be announced at Spectrum's June Nursing Excellence GALA, and will then move on to the National contest which will include six Regional Winners, one in each category, from each nationwide division. Ultimately, six National Winners, one in each category, will be selected from that group and announced in the Fall.

As a NY/NJ Finalist, Alison is one of a very elite number of nurses who have received a great professional nursing honor!

Well done, Alison.
Good at your job - shit as a Human Being.

Palestinian Activist Riad Hamad. Dead In Austin, Texas,

After police fished the body of Riad Hamad out of Lady Bird Lake in East Austin, Texas, they told the media the non-violent Palestinian activist and directing coordinator of the Palestine Children’s Welfare Fund had committed suicide.

“Right now, the indications are that this was not, there was not foul play involved,” police Sgt. Joseph Chacon told KXAN, never mind Mr. Hamad was found bound with duct tape. “Parkgoers who saw the body said the death did not look accidental. They said the man’s face was wrapped with duct tape, and his arms appeared to be tied in front of his body.” KXAN did not bother to explain how Hamad managed to wrap himself in duct tape.

It should be obvious Hamad had a bit of help, although it is apparently too much to expect the corporate media to point out the absurdity of the police explanation. “When the body was removed from the lake, tape was found around the eyes, and the hands and legs were loosely bound,” the Austin police’s public information office expects us to believe. “The bindings of his hands and legs and placement of the tape were consistent with Hamad having done this to himself. Detectives know that Hamad walked from his vehicle to the water on his own based on evidence retrieved from the scene.” Again, no explanation how Mr. Hamad did this or more to the point why a person supposedly interested in suicide would wrap himself in duct tape, loosely or otherwise.

Hamad was not your garden variety suicide, however. “Riad Hamad is a non-violent activist in Austin, Texas. He holds multiple Master’s degrees and has never been arrested. He is now under surveillance by the FBI because he organized the shipment of books to Palestinian children,” Free Speech TV noted before the teacher’s alleged suicide.

“The FBI has on a number of occasions conducted surveillance on Riad Hamad. His neighbors have been interviewed, his co-workers have been questioned, and packages he has sent have been opened,” admits Joe Kaufman, writing for the Scaife funded website, FrontPageMag, run by David Horowitz, a notorious neocon.

Hamad’s crime? He had a problem with Israel killing Palestinians and had shipped books to children.

On Christmas, 2006, Hamad described his crimes, so outrageous for the likes of pro-Israel neocons. He describes a trip to the U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement’s T. Don Hutto detention center in Taylor, Texas, where he talked to an incarcerated Muslim woman and “provided her with cash for phone calls and snacks for the children since the jail officials are providing them with mainly pork and ham that they do not eat,” obviously a treasonous act demonstrating his collaboration with terrorists, including Adel Suleiman, a man with a case of severe diabetes who disappeared in the “detention center” dungeons situated in Haskell, Texas, and Oklahoma.

Back in February, the FBI and IRS raided Hamad’s Palestine Children’s Welfare Fund. “We had a very unpleasant visit from the FBI and IRS agents yesterday morning and they walked out with more than 40 boxes of tax returns, forms, documents, books, flags, cds etc.,” Hamad explained in an email to Hajja Romi. “The special agent said that they have a probable cause for money laundering, wire fraud, bank fraud, etc and I think that all of it stems from more than 35 years of watching me.”

“On the morning of Wednesday, Feb. 27, award-winning schoolteacher Riad Hamad, founder of the Palestine Children’s Welfare Fund (PCWF) was getting ready to leave for work when the doorbell rang in his modest apartment in Austin, Texas. It was a dozen FBI and IRS agents bearing a search warrant from Judge Robert Pittman, known for his hostility to Palestinians and Arabs, with whom Riad had had previous experience,” explains a post on the Progressive Independent forum.

For most of the day, the agents searched every nook and cranny of the apartment, then left with more than forty boxes of papers, files, computers and CDs. No charges were filed at the time against Riad and he was not arrested, but the investigators said they had probable cause to investigate wire fraud, bank fraud and money laundering.

PCWF thus joins the Middle East Children’s Alliance, Kinder USA and Holy Land Foundation — all dedicated to helping Palestinian children as a major part of their work — as objects of investigations that have damaged the functioning of their mission. In no case were these organizations found guilty of wrongdoing, and at most some people with Kinder USA were pressured into minor pleas in order to avoid costly court proceedings.

It is not a coincidence that Riad and PCWF have been targeted. PCWF has been associated with all these organizations, and it is reasonable to assume that when investigations turned up nothing there, they used the references to PCWF to go fishing. Riad has been expecting this for 37 years but refuses to be intimidated, and insists upon exercising his full right to defend Palestinian rights — and his own — in America.

Is it possible Riad Hamad was targeted for suicide as well, sort of the same way prize-winning American investigative journalist Gary Webb committed suicide with multiple gunshots to the head? Webb investigated Nicaraguans linked to the CIA-backed Contras who had smuggled cocaine into the U.S. which was then distributed as crack cocaine into Los Angeles. Gary had to go, as he had yet another book on tap before he killed himself over a stolen motorcycle. Riad had to go too, as he was a thorn in the side of the neocons, the FBI, ICE, and the IRS.

Finally, it should be remembered that back in 2003, Israel declared its intention to embark “upon a more aggressive approach to the war on terror that will include staging targeted killings in the United States and other friendly countries,” according to United Press International. “The Israeli statements were confirmed by more than a half dozen U.S. foreign policy and intelligence officials in interviews with UPI. Israeli hit teams, which consist of units or squadrons of the Kidon, a sub-unit for Mossad’s highly secret Metsada department, would stage the operations, former Israeli intelligence sources said. Kidon is a Hebrew word meaning ‘bayonet,’ one former Israeli intelligence source said.”

Is it possible a neocon hit team or as likely a Mossad “bayonet” team took out the school teacher Riad Hamad?

Certainly, it makes more sense than the lame claim that Mr. Hamad wrapped himself up in duct tape and threw himself in Lady Bird Lake.

The Darkness In Merrick, New York.

Ooh, I have noticed a serious tone creeping into my blogging, recently.

The short and not sweet email communication with the Witch of Merrick, New York, Alison Gelfand, is the cause and my mood changes today.
Yahoo.

So, on with the mundane.
Life in London is good.
The weather is amazing.
Snow one minute, summer heat the next.

Car drivers still get in my way, but eh ?
Too many traffic lights on red when I come up to them.

And the ladies are beginning to wear less - yahoo.

Not Government But Corparation.

Mock exercises on 9/11 which simulate Aeroplanes being flown into Skyscrapers in New York, causing NORAD to stand down leaving the Country defenceless.

The exact scenario, with bombs being detonated on the London Underground and a bus, being managed by Visor Consultants, on 7/7.

Is someone taking the piss ?

The answer is YES.
And the bastards have got away with it.

The result - Two wars.
200,000 deaths.
Poverty and Violence affecting Millions.

WHY ??

So Bush and Blair look good.
Massive profits for the Multinational Companies who now own the USA and UK.
Another step nearer the one World Order the Neo Cons crave.

Wake Up and smell the coffee.

Who Was Shot At Canary Wharf ?

Thinking about the bombings of 7/7, who was shot by police marksmen at Canary Wharf, that same day ?

Reports I have read differ.

One man shot but in three possible locations.
Three men shot in one place.

Can anyone shed any light ?

Palestine Today.

Life in the Gaza Strip.
Tear down the wall.
Not for the squeamish.

Free Palestine.

Offering Friendhip To The Devil

It has been four days since I responded to Alison Gelfand's email, offering an end to dispute and help for my daughter, Grace.

There has been no reply from her.

It saddens me to think that the other members of the family in New York are supporting a woman with no love in her heart.
Where is your voice, Toby Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?
Or yours, Nikki Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?

Where, too, the voice of Lou Gelfand ?

You are NOT caring for my daughter by sending her away to Boarding School.
Can you not deal with a young teenager, whose problems are ones you have heaped upon her by your actions.
We call it Child Abuse in the UK.

Are you all too busy helping daddy build his vet practice in New York ?
All Creatures.
An apt name for the family, methinks.

May God grant you ALL you deserve.

Letter To Siabreen.

Dear Siabreen,

Im writing this as I had no opportunity to express myself before you left.

For over 8 years, we were a loving, powerful partnership.
With you, I experienced true emotion, for the first time in my life.

It was you that helped me come back to myself and, for that, I will be eternally grateful.
We produced Grace, a miraculous event and a miraculous child.
You and I together.
Thank You.

Our relationship was many thing, but never dull.

Towards the end it became too painful to be around you.
The final straw was when you broke your oath to Zelda West Meeds, our Relate Counsellor.

But the end of our relationship need not have meant the end of us as a family.
We could have survived as people and parents, even though apart.
You must have known that.

I wonder if you knew how much your keeping me from Grace hurt(s).
Even now, I doubt if causing me pain was your goal, so what the hell was it ?
(There will be no answer now.)

Thank You for being in my life.
Thank You for allowing me into yours.

I FORGIVE you completely and you are FREE.

Love and Light be with you wherever you are.

Giveaway Of The Day.

http://www.giveawayoftheday.com/

Just a plug for one of my fav sites.
Thank You.

For those who dont know, the site offers licences to new software coming onto the market.

Civil Rights Professor In The Dock.

Professor Adam Fairclough, author of several books on the Civil Rights movement in America, has been accused of lying to the Children Courts and Immigration officials in the UK and USA.

The Professor has not denied the allegations, citing possible mental health issues at the time.

The UEA, Norwich, say they are looking into the claims and will comment further soon.

Grandson Was Born Friday.

My Grandson was born friday.
Without inducement.

My Prayers were answered and Thank You.

Any Time Now.

I am still awake worrying about my eldest daughter, Leona.

She is overdue giving birth to her son.
The midwife gave her a 'sweep' last night, in the hope of moving things along.
She told me she is scared and asked for Angels to be with her.

I ask for them, too.

Hopefully, she will be asleep now, resting.
(I am remembering Leona's birth now and my own fear for my x wife.)
Such an amazing, scary, wonderful, exhausting experience having a child.

Be not afraid, my daughter.
Trust the process and relax.

My thought is my Grandson will be born today - yahoo.

Doreen Norton 1922 - 2007.

Posted: 22:30 Monday, February 18 2008
Doreen Norton, who died on December 30th, 2007, was a true pioneer in nursing for the Elderly.

It is she, who effectively changed nursing practice and eliminated 'bedsores' from the wards.
Concentrating on moving patients rather than washing them, she noted the condition did not occur.

Doreen, was also responsible for designing the Kings Fund bed, the adjustable bed used in all hospital wards.

She became a Social Worker and also wrote books on Geriatric care.

In 1982, she retired but continued to advocate change through Speeches and Talks all over the World.

Bless you, Doreen.

Happy Birthday, George.

An old friend of mine celebrates his Birthday today.
Well, yesterday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GEORGE.

May you always have what you need.

Love and Light to you and yours.

Thoughts On Forgiveness.

To forgive is divine - we are told.

Resentment and hatred leads to heartache and dis-ease.
Yet, how can we set aside the pain that others cause ?
Or, just as importantly, forgive OUR own selfish, greedy actions from the past ?

It is as difficult, or as easy, as we make it.

Looking back at my own troubles, it is clear that I enjoyed feeling miserable, or, at least, comfortable with my angst.
When things didnt run smooth, I could whine 'bigger boys' and blame others.
No-one to blame ?
Then I could whine 'poor me' and play the hapless 'victim'.

In all cases, I did not accept RESPONSIBILITY.

It is I and I alone who is responsible for my desires, deeds and emotions.
No-one else.
Two thirds of my life was spent making mistakes;
unconscious actions, without thought or regard.
I choose differently nowadays.

My deeds, even the majority of my words are chosen carefully.
I respect ALL and choose to offend NONE.
I am content with my self.
Only possible, by no longer beating myself up and FORGIVING my past.
Yes, it took time.
Time to understand, that if my actions in life caused no pain - I would feel no personal pain.
Simple.

Learning how to FORGIVE myself, however, was far easier than to FORGIVE others.
To FORGIVE others who have done wrong against Us, or the world does NOT mean that we forget.
Nor does it mean we have to welcome them back into our lives and hearts.

If people have hurt Us, for no other reason than because they can, they WILL suffer.
Their future guilt/karma begins to manifest as soon as we FORGIVE them.
When we FORGIVE we remove the Darkness that others have wanted for us.
They remain Dark while we step back into the Light.

So I believe.

Birthday Greetings.

It is my youngest child's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, GRACE.

Love light hugs.

Dad x