Turner Shame.

People Who Know Nothing.

What a shit night.
No sleep and a head full of sad memories.

An old friend commented on one of my blogs last year
and asked me to get in touch.
Because I hadnt heard anything for a few weeks I posted on her Facebook page.

She answered straight away,
leaving me in no doubt that Lynn was NOT my friend.
It appears I was to get in touch only for her to kick off at me.

Just to respond to a couple of points you made, Lynn.

Firstly, Siabreen's brother, Adam Fairclough, though an author and professor of American history at the UEA, Norwich is a liar.
Any information from him will be corrupted.

Did he tell you that Grace and I was in communication and Siabreen was in favour of our contact when she died ?

Did Adam Fairclough, UEA, tell you it was Grace who contacted me to tell me of Siabreen's death ?

Did he tell you that Gary Seaman, and the rest of the family snatched the phone away from her when we were talking.
(The last thing I heard was her weeping and telling me she was scared)

Did Adam Fairclough,uea, tell you he has a gagging order on me ?

Did Siabreen tell you that when going to Court many years back, she threatened to tell the police I had raped her ?
I can hear her voice, even now.

Lynn -You know NOTHING.

Offering Friendhip To The Devil

It has been four days since I responded to Alison Gelfand's email, offering an end to dispute and help for my daughter, Grace.

There has been no reply from her.

It saddens me to think that the other members of the family in New York are supporting a woman with no love in her heart.
Where is your voice, Toby Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?
Or yours, Nikki Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?

Where, too, the voice of Lou Gelfand ?

You are NOT caring for my daughter by sending her away to Boarding School.
Can you not deal with a young teenager, whose problems are ones you have heaped upon her by your actions.
We call it Child Abuse in the UK.

Are you all too busy helping daddy build his vet practice in New York ?
All Creatures.
An apt name for the family, methinks.

May God grant you ALL you deserve.

Visiting Siabreen's Grave.

Well, nearly 3 years after Siabreen died, I found the grave.

I had been worried about my feelings and what I may do.
I didnt want to weep uncontrollably, or worse, desecrate the grave.

Siabreen had been cremated and there was only this marker.

I felt nothing !

Visiting Siabreen's grave.

On Tuesday, I discovered where my ex partner, Siabreen, is buried.

The knowledge has caused turmoil with my emotions; also with my body.
The glands of my groin are swollen and sometimes painful.
My thoughts are full of bile, then swing to our LOVE remembered.

It has been an amazing roller-coaster of rediscovered (suppressed) memories and feelings, beautiful, sad and sometimes hateful.

When she first died, I had the thought of desecrating the grave. Payback for the things she had said and done.
My anger was very strong, July 2004.

Now,it is different. I AM different.

It is my intention to visit her grave tomorrow (saturday).
I can feel the sadness welling up even now.
What will I do ?
Cry like a baby.
Shout at her and God.

My prayer is that I FORGIVE her completely
and am finally able to release her.

A conclusion to our most amazing journey together, which started 18 years ago.
Producing our daughter, Grace, as proof that fear and medical conditions need not stand in the way of dreams !

Professor Adam Fairclough,UEA,Norwich,jpg,jpeg

Ah the mild mannered professor.

With a Heart of Stone

and forked tongue.

Where I started blogging.

ModBlog

I first met Sarah Jane Fairclough,in Gwynedd,North Wales.
She then changed her name to Siabreen.

She was bi-sexual then and I met her through my good friend,at the time, Melfyn Summers.
Melfyn was shagging one of Siabreen's ex-lovers-Ali.

Now theres a tale...!
After I left Siabreen,Melfyn rang me for the first time in about 3 years.I thought it strange but trusted him+spoke honestly about why I had left.It transpires that during our conversations he was taping me.Setting me up so it sounded really bad.
Why did you do that Melfyn??Oh yes,a threesome with Siabreen+Ali.Cheap really as I was one of the people who picked you up after you killed your wife in a car crash.One call from him lasted 3 hours!!I remember saying yes to you because I was tired+hurting and pissed off.You knew she was violent yet you supported her in keeping me from Grace.WANKER.

Melfyn Summers.
Of everyone involved in this bloody mess,I have felt more contempt for you,than anyone else.

7/4/05 For Grace My Stolen Child
At 6 months Siabreen started to bleed. The baby had died.Because she was so far along,Siabreen had to deliver the dead baby in Bangor Hospital,Gwynedd. We were left alone in a room for 12 hours.The only time a Nurse came near us was when I demanded Pethadine for Siabreens pain. The poor girl was off her head with the pain and drugs.I held her over a bedpan+helped her deliver bloodied clots of fles> 0

7/2/05
For the first couple of years,Siabreen held my hand.Helping me deal with some major issues in my life. Including forgiveness-she kicked me out one week so she could shag her oap friend from London-John. Amazingly,I could forgive her. We were both learning+started to teach others.Then Siabreen fell pregnant. She went into fear,having already suffered a miscarriage when she was younger. I was fearle> 0

7/2/05
We met at a party on Angelsey. She gave me flirtatious looks and cocaine. Sarah/Siabreen was just getting into Rebirthing and Personal Growth work. So began an amazing relationship. She changed her name to Siabreen.A name given to her by,she believed,her Gaurdian Angel. You must remember,Adam,how you mocked your sister for that.Refusing point blank her wishes and insisting on calling her Sarah. > 0

6/30/05 Gary Seaman of Croyden
Adam Fairclough;Siabreen; Alison Gelfand;Marion Wi
You could at least have the decency to reply to my texts. Strange,I thought the Childstealer was a better judge of character! 0

6/30/05 Adam Fairclough UEA Norwich: Better day coming...
Adam Fairclough. Siabreen has turned you into a Liar. Better day coming...for Grace and Roy. Better day coming...when people find out what youve been doing. Better day coming...when God takes action against you and your family.  

6/30/05 Adam Fairclough UEA Norwich: Siabreen
Siabreen blamed an incident of childhood abuse for the way she behaved. Siabreen WAS the ABUSER.  

6/29/05 Adam Fairclough UEA Norwich
Eight years ago,this August,I left my partner,Siabreen. Not because Id met someone else. Not because I was having a mid-life crisis. But,because of Siabreen's violence towards me! Siabreen then lied to Social Services,the Courts and both our Families. I was not the violent one.All I did was leave my Abusive Partner. Yet I have not seen my daughter Grace,in 8 years. I first met Sarah Jane Fairclough.

6/28/05 Gary Seaman of Croyden: Alison Fairclough Gelfand of Merrick,New York
Please allow Grace to see her Father! You know its the right thing to do! Grace+I were communicating before her mother died. Please allow us contact. For ALL our sakes.  

6/28/05 American Studies Norwich University: Gary Seaman of Croyden
You were crying when you rang me,asking to give you and the Fairclough family space to grieve Siabreen. Well,I did. You snatched the phone from Grace when she was telling me of her mothers death that morning. Now,you and the Fairclough's arrange for Grace to be removed from the UK behind her Fathers back. No communication only lies from Adam. I begged you for information about my Daughters well-be> 0

6/28/05 Professor Adam Fairclough UEA
Professor Adam Fairclough UEA Allow Grace to see her Father. You teach Civil Liberties at Norwich, yet deny Grace and Roy theirs. Are you acting like this because of your drinking? I allowed you to stay in my house when you fell apart. I helped you and you repay me by abusing my daughter, lying to the Courts and Social Services. How can you use the Courts to keep a Father and Daughter apart? 
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Today, I was asked if I was glad Siabreen had died.

My first thought, Im ashamed to say, was Yes.

Only for a moment.

Then, I remembered my Lover and Friend of 8 years.
The Mother of my Daughter, Grace.
The Stepmom to my Daughter, Leona.

Siabreen and I had been communicating.
Grace and I had been communicating.
The Nightmare was coming to an End.

The Fairclough and Gelfand families put a stop to that.
For Grace, not only did she lose her Mother,
but she lost her Father all over again.

Would one of the family please contact me !
It is never too late to Heal this situation.

For Grace's sake !

My Stolen Child

It is unbelievable that in a so-called civilised society,children are kept from their parents.

I have broken no law,commited no crime,yet am kept from my daughter.
Even more distressing for my child,that her mother,Siabreen,died.
Still,I am kept from Grace.

Do you,Adam Fairclough,or you,Alison Gelfand,realise the pain and distress you have caused both Grace and I.

It is like my daughter has died,yet I have not a Funeral or Grave for conclusion.

I pray that nothing happens to your children.No one should have to endure the pain that you are causing.

Alison Gelfand

Alison Gelfand of Merrick,New York,hates me.

But loves my daughter !

Though her reasons for hating me are wrong !