Turner Shame.

People Who Know Nothing.

What a shit night.
No sleep and a head full of sad memories.

An old friend commented on one of my blogs last year
and asked me to get in touch.
Because I hadnt heard anything for a few weeks I posted on her Facebook page.

She answered straight away,
leaving me in no doubt that Lynn was NOT my friend.
It appears I was to get in touch only for her to kick off at me.

Just to respond to a couple of points you made, Lynn.

Firstly, Siabreen's brother, Adam Fairclough, though an author and professor of American history at the UEA, Norwich is a liar.
Any information from him will be corrupted.

Did he tell you that Grace and I was in communication and Siabreen was in favour of our contact when she died ?

Did Adam Fairclough, UEA, tell you it was Grace who contacted me to tell me of Siabreen's death ?

Did he tell you that Gary Seaman, and the rest of the family snatched the phone away from her when we were talking.
(The last thing I heard was her weeping and telling me she was scared)

Did Adam Fairclough,uea, tell you he has a gagging order on me ?

Did Siabreen tell you that when going to Court many years back, she threatened to tell the police I had raped her ?
I can hear her voice, even now.

Lynn -You know NOTHING.

Offering Friendhip To The Devil

It has been four days since I responded to Alison Gelfand's email, offering an end to dispute and help for my daughter, Grace.

There has been no reply from her.

It saddens me to think that the other members of the family in New York are supporting a woman with no love in her heart.
Where is your voice, Toby Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?
Or yours, Nikki Gelfand, of Merrick, New York ?

Where, too, the voice of Lou Gelfand ?

You are NOT caring for my daughter by sending her away to Boarding School.
Can you not deal with a young teenager, whose problems are ones you have heaped upon her by your actions.
We call it Child Abuse in the UK.

Are you all too busy helping daddy build his vet practice in New York ?
All Creatures.
An apt name for the family, methinks.

May God grant you ALL you deserve.

Visiting Siabreen's Grave.

Well, nearly 3 years after Siabreen died, I found the grave.

I had been worried about my feelings and what I may do.
I didnt want to weep uncontrollably, or worse, desecrate the grave.

Siabreen had been cremated and there was only this marker.

I felt nothing !

Visiting Siabreen's grave.

On Tuesday, I discovered where my ex partner, Siabreen, is buried.

The knowledge has caused turmoil with my emotions; also with my body.
The glands of my groin are swollen and sometimes painful.
My thoughts are full of bile, then swing to our LOVE remembered.

It has been an amazing roller-coaster of rediscovered (suppressed) memories and feelings, beautiful, sad and sometimes hateful.

When she first died, I had the thought of desecrating the grave. Payback for the things she had said and done.
My anger was very strong, July 2004.

Now,it is different. I AM different.

It is my intention to visit her grave tomorrow (saturday).
I can feel the sadness welling up even now.
What will I do ?
Cry like a baby.
Shout at her and God.

My prayer is that I FORGIVE her completely
and am finally able to release her.

A conclusion to our most amazing journey together, which started 18 years ago.
Producing our daughter, Grace, as proof that fear and medical conditions need not stand in the way of dreams !

Professor Adam Fairclough,UEA,Norwich,jpg,jpeg

Ah the mild mannered professor.

With a Heart of Stone

and forked tongue.

Today, I was asked if I was glad Siabreen had died.

My first thought, Im ashamed to say, was Yes.

Only for a moment.

Then, I remembered my Lover and Friend of 8 years.
The Mother of my Daughter, Grace.
The Stepmom to my Daughter, Leona.

Siabreen and I had been communicating.
Grace and I had been communicating.
The Nightmare was coming to an End.

The Fairclough and Gelfand families put a stop to that.
For Grace, not only did she lose her Mother,
but she lost her Father all over again.

Would one of the family please contact me !
It is never too late to Heal this situation.

For Grace's sake !

My Stolen Child

It is unbelievable that in a so-called civilised society,children are kept from their parents.

I have broken no law,commited no crime,yet am kept from my daughter.
Even more distressing for my child,that her mother,Siabreen,died.
Still,I am kept from Grace.

Do you,Adam Fairclough,or you,Alison Gelfand,realise the pain and distress you have caused both Grace and I.

It is like my daughter has died,yet I have not a Funeral or Grave for conclusion.

I pray that nothing happens to your children.No one should have to endure the pain that you are causing.

Alison Gelfand

Alison Gelfand of Merrick,New York,hates me.

But loves my daughter !

Though her reasons for hating me are wrong !